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We all have external circumstances, perhaps out of our control, that present ongoing challenges and produce stress. When we also have the internal stressor of obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD), it can make dealing with external challenges all the more difficult. Diminishing the hold the OCD has on us frees up headspace to cope with life’s problems.
You may be at a point with your OCD where you feel powerless to fight it, where it controls you like puppet. That’s how I felt most of my life. OCD decided which foot would step over the next crack in the sidewalk, which side of a light post I would walk on, where I would place my cup of coffee on a counter, which words I was allowed to say aloud.
I would regularly get stuck repeating lists of people’s name in my head for hours at a time. Sometimes I would repeat those names while walking in circles in the basement. Incidental tasks like recycling junk mail became ordeals that could last hours, as I found myself compelled to retrieve papers from the waste basket over and over to re-read words on pages. I would take the trash can out to the end of the driveway only to have to go back and touch the can over and over again. OCD ruled my every waking activity, and sometimes intruded into my dreams.
When you are so thoroughly overwhelmed with intrinsically-produced anxiety, how can you make any progress with external problems, or even cope with them emotionally?
The good news is that I was able to rid myself of my OCD. I no longer walk in circles in the basement. I decide where I walk and what I say, not some demons occupying my brain. In my case, I manifested my way out of OCD. I worked at the spiritual practice of manifestation for many months and finally applied the technique to my OCD. I had always thought that the OCD was too powerful for me to cure. I even feared curing it, since I thought that bad things might happen as a result. I also didn’t know who I would be without my OCD; It had been a central, and secret, part of my identity since early childhood.
When I manifested my freedom from OCD, I discovered right away that I suddenly had the ability to focus on other areas of my life. I had more time to think thoughts that I wanted to think. And now I can productively pay as much attention as I want to on external…
